a rae of fucking sunshine

word.
can i just say that i hate life right now? it seems like there is constantly one thing after another piled on.  which happens, but it makes me really want to hate life. or at least this aspect in my life.
i dont trust happiness. i feel happy right now, but i know there is some where inside sadness, anger and frustration waiting to get out. but its masked with a smile and laughter.  how does that work? right now happiness, like love is a fake emotion that comes by and makes you feel good, but it never stays. or barely. or maybe its just this year. how much longer do i have to live ‘here’. i’d like to pull out the ‘unfair’ card, but i really doubt that would make any sort of a difference

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w t fucking f.